Dedication of a Lifetime by Tamsen Parker

Author:Tamsen Parker [Parker, Tamsen]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Contemporary Romance, Adult, m/m romance, Romance, Short Fiction
ISBN: 9781942427131
Published: 2018-02-09T16:00:00+00:00

Drowning. That’s how Isaiah felt. Like he couldn’t keep his head above water and not only was he going to drown, but he was going to take Sean down with him and that wasn’t acceptable. It made Isaiah so fucking angry. He wanted to break something, hurt someone. He wanted to rant and rave and destroy shit but he wouldn’t. He couldn’t, because from a very early age his mama had taught him not to give anyone a reason to say he’d been out of control or acting up, because that was dangerous. Then she’d admitted even if he wasn’t doing a damn thing wrong there were no guarantees.

After he’d wrecked his desk, he’d tried to calm down but sitting in his office and taking deep breaths had given his mind time to wander. Had given him space to inventory all the injustices, all of the wrongs that had been done already, and all the ways in which things were likely to get worse before they got better. They damn well had to get better. Because he couldn’t stand to watch the people he loved get worn down and trod over until they were flat, lifeless, and hopeless, all the mischievous sparkle gone. And what would people like him be without people like them? Soldiers with nothing left to fight for.

It made him rail. “I want what I do to matter. I want to live in a country that doesn’t want me dead. I want to live in a country where people don’t think healthcare should be a fucking luxury good. And I… Goddammit, Sean, how can you want to stay?”

Sean stared at him with those big, wide eyes of his, looking so delicate and breakable and fragile and soft, and asked a question Isaiah didn’t want to ask himself.

“How can we not?”

His goddamn husband. His generous-to-a-fault, open-hearted husband. He wanted to tie Sean up and sling him over his shoulder, and not to do filthy things to him either. Isaiah wanted to haul him away in order to keep him safe because god knew Sean wouldn’t do it himself. He’d be the asshole volunteering because it was the right thing to do. He’d be the one on the front lines because he felt like he’d lived his life with so much privilege that it was time to take one for the team. Isaiah loved him and hated him so fucking much for that all at the same time.

He wanted to argue with Sean that they’d done enough, that they’d paid their dues, both literally and figuratively, and it wasn’t their fucking job anymore. They’d earned a little peace. That’s all Isaiah wanted. Was a little quiet and easy happiness in a life that had been filled with struggle and far too much awareness. It made a person’s heart heavy, put holes in a person’s soul. It made a person tired and weary and cynical and… Was it really so bad that he wanted to keep his little family safe?

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